I've known my best friend since 7th grade. That's going on about 10 years now. For 4 and a half years of that friendship, we didn't live any where near each other. Now after both of us have graduated from college, we are living together.

We have a very interesting relationship from an outsiders point of view. On a regular basis we call each other bitch, whore, skank. Tell each other to kiss our asses. Then in the next moment its hun, baby, sweetie. We're 200% honest with each other,...

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Save me. From working 7 days a week. From nights of fitful sleep. From thoughts of grandeur. From gas prices. From bills. From thoughts of someone I want but can't have. From feelings of loneliness. From feelings of inadequacy. Save me.

Save me.

Hold me close and keep me safe in your arms. Help me forget, just for a moment, about all the things I have to do and take care of. And the things that are in your power to fix, please fix them. Renew my will and strength to...

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This week has been a culmination of massive...well, I don't exactly have the word for it. I can't say disappointment, although I've had some of those. It's just been one of those moments that makes me take a hard look at life, shake my head and sigh. Life is a hellcat, and there isn't much you can do about it. Except complain.


Dry Cleaners
I had my work clothes altered and cleaned. The bill came up to $47 bucks. I was annoyed, but had every intention of submitting it...

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Sleep
I don't get it. Literally. Since I got back from LA last week, I've been getting the most shitty sleep. I'll go to bed and I'll sleep, but I also wake up maybe every hour and the gears in my mind get to moving for about five minutes before I can fall asleep again. I need solid sleep. I tried using one of those water fountain things. I took a sleeping pill. I tried going to bed earlier - at least this way I wasn't AS tired. Last night I took a bath with bath salts, bubbles, and candles....

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My freshmen year in college I didn't live in the residence halls. I tried, but there were more incoming students than rooms, so many of us ended up being put some where else because the university had to provide us with housing since we applied for it. I ended up in an apartment complex not far from campus. Four bedrooms, each with it's own bathroom, living room, kitchen, full size washer and dryer, and fully furnished. Two people per room. Sounds like a relatively good set up.

Too...

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It seems that once I get going, I not only go, I take on a whole hell of a lot. I went from being jobless with way too much time on my hands, to having two jobs and wondering where the time goes. Just today alone, I woke up at 6:30 AM. It's not 11 PM and my day is just now ending. I worked at the gym from 8AM-12PM, then went to the airport 1-6PM. After that, I went to my mom's house and changed clothes. Since about 6:30, I've been hanging out at my uncle's for a family gathering.

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Last night I went out with my best friend and soon to be roommate, Ash. We met up with a guy she had previously been involved with a couple months ago and a friend of his at a pub in downtown Sac. I was excited about it, if only to see another faucet of Sacramento night life. Having already Matt before and some of his friends, I expected that like the others, the friend that was with him wouldn't be my type.

I was right, but I'll get into that later.

When we to the...

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I've been so very busy with work doing full time hours to get all my training out of the way as quickly as possible. Well I'm finished with that and with my regular part time hours in affect, I have a lot of free time! And I'm anxious to make use of it. So echolake and I decided to go clubbing!!

The night started off simple enough. I took my sweet ass time getting ready - I read for a full hour after I had talked to echo. I didn't get start getting ready until she said she was on...

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If there is one huge lesson I relearned since joining this site it is that AM are not special. And by not special I mean that there is no personality trait or look or anything about AM that make them any more desirable than men from other races. I never thought this to begin with, I just wanted to take a chance at dating AM exclusively. I now know that this is rather pointless. Some how or another in my excitement over this site, I forgot that all humans - regardless of race or culture - share many...

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TSA, Sacramento Airport
So I did end up taking the job at TSA because the restaurant job fell through. They just took to long getting back to me, and no amount of calling them was enough. But all has worked out. I'm actually enjoying myself. It's not easy work, and I have to be ready for anything and everything at the drop of a dime.

I had my first angry passenger. She got all pissy because I had to check her bag. Well, thats what she gets for bringing liquids larger than 3.4oz...

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