I may be one of those paranoid people who has spent most of their lives fighting up hill that when an easy slide to home-base comes I always believe that somehow some where a runner is going to smack me in the side, ball in glove, and I'm out. Do I fear success? Can I answer that honestly? Not right now. No. It seems I'm always talking about how successful and blah blah so full of myself blah blah. I'm not, I'm scared shitless constantly that everything will suddenly take a turn south and I'll be...

This is totally something I'm just slapping together right now since I make less appearances than the unicorn from legend. Sometimes I wonder if I should try harder to find a working signal because argh! I'm a pirate! For those who pay, I'm the one who sneaks on and slows down your connection. Yes, I'm THAT person. Honestly, if I could afford it I would buy it but as a fashion student all my money goes to fabric and needles and $80 marker sets and all that jazz. So, here I am putting some info...

So, my life is cleaning itself up at a rate I was definitely not prepared for but very much a good thing. That sentence did not make sense and I refuse to rewrite it. So, since this is aznlover I have to admit that my prospects have been dodging me like the draft. I say that because I never see one now! My friends back home are constantly saying "you know, there's this guy. He's asian, over six feet, tats, you know! Totally your type!" Thanks. Thanks for that. I really need...

So yeah, I'm in an amazing mood. Like, seriously I am beyond happy and my life is becoming exponentially better with each passing day.

Unfortunately, however, I'm becoming annoyed with how fucking miserable everyone else makes themselves I swear I see so many damn emo pics on my facebook and its constant drama, drama, drama from my friends back home and family around my age. I mean goddamn. Life is hard, I know, but there comes a time when you pull up your boot straps and face the...

So, my valley girl accent still gets giggles from random people so I'm happy about it. I've finally tamed the dreaded Juko sewing machine. It seems all our machines are made in japan so hopefully it won't be that bad when I move. I love proving people wrong. Ok, I'm a comic book geek to the marrow and when I saw a Sin City book on a friend's desk I squealed. I love Frank Miller. So he let me borrow it. I read it in two days. I would have read it in a night but the words started to blur together....

I know the title is strange but bear with me. Ok so I have to get back to my dorms so I can attend my first class by mid next week. I live 30 minutes from the Georgia state line and attend college in Miami. She tells me that she "forgot I had to take you home". Don't be extremely surprised by this, despite the fact that she blames it on her "stressed out because of work" its always been like this. See, in a good ol southern family... or maybe just the twisted one I belong to,...

So, yeah. Ok there was a bump in the road de life that is mine. You know how people say that sometimes you need to step back to appreciate something? Well, I had to do that recently and boy was I effing things up. I'm still cleaning up the remnants of the mess but its mainly the fact that I ended up falling back into depression after a hard summer. I won't go into all the details but it had a suicide,...

Anybody had the feeling recently like they want to curl up into a ball and try to wait out their life until something better comes? I had that the last week and it was bull. I have never been so bleh. I'm really, really trying to get a good grown up approach to life and dating but... dammit, I dunno. I got asked out by a friend of mine... he's an italian stripper. I don't know how I should handle that. I said no because he's really not my type but am I wrong to turn down every guy who isn't my type...

Fricken myspace took my playlist off!!! Do they know how hard it was to find that Rip slyme song?!?!?! Sons of bitches!!! I do not wish to curse but they are such fuck monkeys!!!!! Well screw them, I'll just listen to it on the site. Now I have no reason to go there. MUAHAHHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...

I was always taught that positivity always beats out negative thoughts any day of the week so before I have to pull one of my great grandmother's tricks running around this site shaking incense and saying cherokee prayers, I think its best if everyone downs a chill pill and watches this.





But J.I.C.

...