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Hands Up, Brass On, Knock Out

BlackCherryB — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 23:04:30 GMT

I may be one of those paranoid people who has spent most of their lives fighting up hill that when an easy slide to home-base comes I always believe that somehow some where a runner is going to smack me in the side, ball in glove, and I'm out. Do I fear success? Can I answer that honestly? Not right now. No. It seems I'm always talking about how successful and blah blah so full of myself blah blah. I'm not, I'm scared shitless constantly that everything will suddenly take a turn south and I'll be ass deep in alligators. Is this a well based fear?

Dammit, I don't know, you tell me.

I think I'll just dedicate this whole post to fear of the unknown, fear of the future. All that jazz. Fear is a many splendid thing, well... primal fear is because primal fear saves one ass in dangerous situations. So that fear is fine but this fear, this fear of the future and things I cannot control. This is not something I would consider a fear with merit. No, this is bullshit. I really need to stop cursing by the by. Anyway, I'm afraid that by letting myself fear the future I might just be shielding myself from better things to come. I feel stupid.

Deuces and Lilies,
BlackCherryBombshell

Look ma, no smilies!

Viva la Muerte!

BlackCherryB — Sat, 04 Jul 2009 20:39:40 GMT

This is totally something I'm just slapping together right now since I make less appearances than the unicorn from legend. Sometimes I wonder if I should try harder to find a working signal because argh! I'm a pirate! For those who pay, I'm the one who sneaks on and slows down your connection. Yes, I'm THAT person. Honestly, if I could afford it I would buy it but as a fashion student all my money goes to fabric and needles and $80 marker sets and all that jazz. So, here I am putting some info up since I disappear so often.

On the other hand... nah. I used to walk around and think of the greatest blogs to go on here but since I had no internet access they have fizzled and died :banghead:. So, in replacement of said magical and amazing topics, I'm about to bullshit my way to a coherent argument that as i write this have no idea will be. Pretty much this is the text version of vocal regurgitation. This... this what I'm writing is all crap but at least its something.

For those who usually enjoy what I have to say Start Reading Here:

So, I'm officially addicted to spill.com. For those that have no idea what I'm talking about, they do movie reviews that are hilarious. I love them though I may not always agree. I try to watch every one they put up. Also I've been getting into music more and I adore Jero. I think he's amazing and super awesome and just neato! Hahaha o.k., enjoy a video.

YouTube - ??????? ?PV?

Ironing out the Creases

BlackCherryB — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 22:35:53 GMT

So, my life is cleaning itself up at a rate I was definitely not prepared for but very much a good thing. That sentence did not make sense and I refuse to rewrite it. So, since this is aznlover I have to admit that my prospects have been dodging me like the draft. I say that because I never see one now! My friends back home are constantly saying "you know, there's this guy. He's asian, over six feet, tats, you know! Totally your type!" :banghead: Thanks. Thanks for that. I really need for you to rub that in. I love my friends but they're killing me. So right now I'm frustrated, horny, and completely obsessed with how much of my life decisions are appearing in parts of my life. Its weird, like stuff from back when I was a kid and all. Its crazy

Captain Obvious v. Mistress Oblivious

BlackCherryB — Sun, 01 Mar 2009 22:03:30 GMT

So yeah, I'm in an amazing mood. Like, seriously I am beyond happy and my life is becoming exponentially better with each passing day.

Unfortunately, however, I'm becoming annoyed with how fucking miserable everyone else makes themselves I swear I see so many damn emo pics on my facebook and its constant drama, drama, drama from my friends back home and family around my age. I mean goddamn. Life is hard, I know, but there comes a time when you pull up your boot straps and face the music. I'm so tired of hearing complaint after complaint after fricken complaint. And for what? The guy you like has a girlfriend? Ok move on. Your family life is shitty? As was mine but I made it out. Do they buck up and take life by the horns? Hell no they fucking starve themselves like a dumbass and keep asking me fucking questions like, "If I don't eat will my hair fall out?" WHAT THE FUCK!?!?! I'm constantly busting my ass to get you somewhere and you fucking piss on it by acting like you don't have some damn sense?!?!?! Don't tell me shit expecting me to whine and coo over your ass constantly if you don't better yourself. I'm on a mission to turn my dreams into reality but if you keep acting like a jackass I'm so tempted to leave your ass on the side of the road. I don't have the time to be babysitting a fucking emo who'd rather wallow and talk about their pain than do something about it. I've got a life people!

.....

Yeah so that was mostly a message to someone close to me in my life whose being a bit difficult. They won't read it because they do not belong to this site but damn it felt good to get it out. I could use some advice on how to handle it. So far I am not talking to said person because they are "shitting on my efforts" as I so told them.

Bai bai

Like, avoid the germs...Fer sure.

BlackCherryB — Fri, 06 Feb 2009 03:44:11 GMT

So, my valley girl accent still gets giggles from random people so I'm happy about it. I've finally tamed the dreaded Juko sewing machine. It seems all our machines are made in japan so hopefully it won't be that bad when I move. I love proving people wrong. Ok, I'm a comic book geek to the marrow and when I saw a Sin City book on a friend's desk I squealed. I love Frank Miller. So he let me borrow it. I read it in two days. I would have read it in a night but the words started to blur together. Every person who saw me with it gave me the "What major are you in?" speech. Don't put me in a box, when i bust out you'll get covered with splinters.

More later, I dropped a weight on my foot and it hurts to write/think.

Alas I have no penis

BlackCherryB — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 05:43:16 GMT

I know the title is strange but bear with me. Ok so I have to get back to my dorms so I can attend my first class by mid next week. I live 30 minutes from the Georgia state line and attend college in Miami. She tells me that she "forgot I had to take you home". Don't be extremely surprised by this, despite the fact that she blames it on her "stressed out because of work" its always been like this. See, in a good ol southern family... or maybe just the twisted one I belong to, after you hit puberty you immediately take backseat to your male couterparts(ie siblings).

Its the same thing with my sister and hell with all of us. See, here's the list of importance to my mother. Her boyfriend, her job, my brother, myself, my sister. Bull shit right? TRY DEALING WITH IT FOR YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :banghead:

Anywho, thats why I have my sister. We look out for each other because sometimes it feels like thats all we've got because alas, we have no penis.

My Life on Track

BlackCherryB — Tue, 06 Jan 2009 02:18:39 GMT

So, yeah. Ok there was a bump in the road de life that is mine. You know how people say that sometimes you need to step back to appreciate something? Well, I had to do that recently and boy was I effing things up. I'm still cleaning up the remnants of the mess but its mainly the fact that I ended up falling back into depression after a hard summer. I won't go into all the details but it had a suicide, a large move and my first time with bitches. This was a blip on the radar compared to the two year depression I dealt with earlier. I still have plenty grey in my hair but its all good, that what dye is for right?

What I'm trying to say is that its a new dawn, its a new day, its a new life. Haha I love that song. Its a new year and I breaking the chains of it. I'm studying my language books and preparing for what I'm ready to do. My sister made me cry, in a good way. I overheard her with her hairdresser, "When my sister says she's going to do something, its done." I needed that. I love that chick.

-Deuces,
BlackCherryBombshell(in case you ever wondered where the extra b came in)

YouTube - muse - feeling good

Fun Fun Fun

BlackCherryB — Sun, 28 Dec 2008 17:00:08 GMT

Anybody had the feeling recently like they want to curl up into a ball and try to wait out their life until something better comes? I had that the last week and it was bull. I have never been so bleh. I'm really, really trying to get a good grown up approach to life and dating but... dammit, I dunno. I got asked out by a friend of mine... he's an italian stripper. I don't know how I should handle that. I said no because he's really not my type but am I wrong to turn down every guy who isn't my type or would it be wrong to go out with someone I know I don't feel for in the hopes I won't feel lonely. I'm in a crisis people!!! I don't want to date a stripper!!! Gah!!!! :banghead:

Not to mention I'm jumping on my family cause we're all stressed and irritable and there's still issues among everyone. No one likes my mom's bf, my sis has issues and we're all short on cash! Whoo!!! except my mom who bought a flat screen... Damn I love the holidays.

What the hell?!?!?!?!?

BlackCherryB — Mon, 22 Dec 2008 17:48:27 GMT

Fricken myspace took my playlist off!!! Do they know how hard it was to find that Rip slyme song?!?!?! Sons of bitches!!! I do not wish to curse but they are such fuck monkeys!!!!! Well screw them, I'll just listen to it on the site. Now I have no reason to go there. MUAHAHHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:dance:

BCB ftw

Positve Aspects

BlackCherryB — Mon, 15 Dec 2008 20:41:58 GMT

:banana: I was always taught that positivity always beats out negative thoughts any day of the week so before I have to pull one of my great grandmother's tricks running around this site shaking incense and saying cherokee prayers:laugh:, I think its best if everyone downs a chill pill and watches this.

YouTube - Love In Asia: Hello Mimi, My Love (3 of 5)

But J.I.C.

Cherokee Prayer Blessing
May the Warm Winds of Heaven
Blow softly upon your house.
May the Great Spirit
Bless all who enter there.
May your Mocassins
Make happy tracks
in many snows,
and may the Rainbow
Always touch your shoulder.

This actually hangs in my grandma's house. lol

Broke on the holidays

BlackCherryB — Sun, 14 Dec 2008 02:47:05 GMT

Sooooo college's a bitch huh? I'm withouts teh money and still have to do teh shoppings for mi fam. Yeah... I'm feeling the money crunch and my wallot has three fractured ribs. Its just that I don't want to ask my Buppie mommy for the cash cause I'll know she'll hold it over my head until I do what she wants such as accept her jobless graduate school bf. Hell no! :fawkdance: I'll be broke for a minute, not poor but broke. Thanks Rich Dad Poor Dad, I know the difference. Go smart azn business men. And yeah... I's broke ya'll. I need some cash, or a sugar daddy. Ha ha no, I'd feel so bad....

I've got tons to draw, my hands are threatening to strike but I'm just begging them to hold on until after the holidays then I'll sweeten their deal with manicures and massages. Yeah. It could work.

I'm trying not to freak out cause I can't buy all the xmas presents I wanted. I was going to make baskets for everyone (cept my mom's bf) and now I can't. If it wasn't for E.L.F. No one was getting nothin. I know its a double negative so hush. My I.Q.'s 137 on a bad day, come at me!

So what am I doing now? Listening to Rob Zombie, Daft Punk, Common, and Mary J to try and feel better. Le sigh, Le vie.

YouTube - Elfen Lied - Living Dead Girl - Rob Zombie

damn its so hard to find an embedded version of the song, couldn't even put up the video. Damn universal

Krampus says buy better presents. Happy Holidays!

Ear Candy

BlackCherryB — Wed, 03 Dec 2008 23:38:00 GMT

So... This is what boredom and the internet gets me, tons of music from a place I plan on heading to. Splee!!!(for those unfamiliar with the "splee", it is a declaration of joy and can be used in acutal terms or with sarcasm. In this instant, it is the first.) Yeah, so I've been getting tons of suggestions on what I should listen to and I'm quite happy. Of course I've always been a fan of Gackt. I can't help it, he's so cute :banana2:... though I've been told he can be an asshole to male friends. THANK GOD I'M A GIRL! Ha ha ha ha. I wonder if you can tell how old I am by the way I write. Thats sad.

Anyways... I enjoy hip hop. I won't lie about it. I don't really enjoy mainstream rap artists but I do enjoy hip hop and it turns out I love japanese hip hop. I've been listening to Teriyaki Boyz since my senior yearr of Tokyo Drift(love the music, movie-.... meh) but I've just now started listening to the group that two of the members belonged to previously. That group is Rip Slyme. I swear I've listened to I.N.G. everyday for three weeks. I also love Joint just because of the face Ryo Z makes. Its so adorable!! :laugh: I think I'm gonna put it in my signature. Oh. I definitely will.

The Teriyaki Boyz have a really great album that they came out with recently. I love it. It has a lot of american artists on it and it meshes really nice. I need more suggestions. Give me some if you can. I wish I lived in California only for the fact that apparently a lot of the artists hang out in the parks. I'm not really a west coast girl but I'd visit just to meet them.

I need to invest in a camera... damn college and its draining of my pockets... that was a random end.

Blood, Gore, and Hair Reprise

BlackCherryB — Wed, 26 Nov 2008 19:25:03 GMT

So, if you read my last blog you'd know that I've been watching some horror movies and its been swell! :banana: Yea... and then I got the suggestion of Audition and, being my horror loving self, I watched it. For me, it was one of those movies that took a minute to sink in. It may be because I'm a desensitized Y generation brat that can I.M. through anything and can seem to take on watching a suspense movie on my laptop while my roommates blast an action movie just a mere 5 feet away or the fact that I grew up on scary stuff including things such as "Family Tales from the Crypt Night" where we would crowd around the big screen just to watch the crypt keeper tell lame jokes and B+ actors meet grim endings. Either way I wasn't about to loose my Taco Bell watching a chick puke into a dog dish and feed it to a man with no tongue. And yet now as I type it I'm about to send green tea back up. Talk about delayed reaction. Damn good movie.

I still have to say that Rob Zombie is a pussy for lack of a better term. Its said that he couldn't last though the torture scene and I must say that it seriously wasn't that scary when I watched it, nothing to make me walk out of a movie. I think we sometimes forget to differentiate between gore and horror. Horror is scary, gore gets boring or at least tired. I mean to say, Rob Zombie movies get tired. I couldn't even make it through his Halloween remake because I was about to fall asleep. Gore? Splee!!! All gore, no real horror? Yawn.

This brings me to machine girl. Possibly the most hillarious attempt at semi-horror ever. It was more campy than 60's live action batman. I was expecting a dance sequence. It was if someone have Sailor Moon a machine gun for a hand. Yet, I'll probably watch it again because it made me giggle a lot. Nice gore though.

I wonder if Japanese bullies are really that hardcore though, makes you wonder.

Blood, Gore, and Hair

BlackCherryB — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 04:08:51 GMT

Thank god for horror movies. I love them so much and I 'm so glad I got to see a new one last night/this morning but we'll get to that later.

I have to say one of the best america horror movies I've seen recently is Midnight Meat Train. I love that movie!!!! I think the best horror movies are the ones that don't get too much play. The mainstream horror movies are made for screams, not fear... if that makes sense. I guess I wish to say that they are like most things now a days: immediate gratification but no real sustenance. A few good jumps are fun but I want a movie thats gonna leave me a little scarred for the rest of my life. Ha ha. Just joking but I want something good, you know?

Ok but back to the movie from last night. I love asian horror movies so much better than their American counterparts. Maybe its because I like the supernatural and the occult, or maybe its the bangin special fx. Anywho, I was introduced to the little gem of a horror named "Sick Nurses". One of my friends downloaded it onto his laptop and showed it to me. I ended up clapping at the end because I was so impressed. :applause:

Its not a movie for everyone and I was glad it wasn't. It has some controversy but I loved it. I'm really happy with it. Now... to watch Machine Girl...:dance:.

Its been a while.

BlackCherryB — Tue, 28 Oct 2008 00:23:58 GMT

Man, I haven't posted to a blog in a while and I decided the one here gets my attention first. A lot of things are going on in my life and despite the fact that I'm a bit tired of running around like an insane asylum escapee, I am quite proud of myself. So, first off, I listened to some great advice and have decided to continue my studies at the Bunka Fashion College in Shinjuku after I get my bachelors in the states. Its a super prestigious school and I am going to have to work my ass off to get in. Like seriously work but its ok. Do you know it actually costs less to go there than it does over here. *Le sigh* So much wasted money.

Now... That means I have about 2.5 years to learn enough Japanese to survive. One conclusion... Rosetta Stone is my friend. That and my happy planet. So far I can say. "Hello, My name is" "I am a student" "Japanese is hard". Ok, I lie. I can say more than that but it feels like its taking forever. I've got time but... I'm a bit impatient.

So, college has been kicking my butt. I have to draw a collection a week and research. A few of my friends are switching from a design to a merchandising degree but I will not accept defeat. I need a battlecry or something. Overhauled my myspace so I would have a constant reminder of what I'm doing. Goals need to be remembered.

Its cold in Miami. The wind's blowing and I'm outside. Brr.

(Weird way to end a post)