Okay, so I get a call from my mom in Albany, Ga. saying that my granmother needs stints placed in her heart. Then it goes from that to, open heart surgery. So, I drove down to Albany, Ga. to see her before the surgery and to be there for her and family. Well, she made it through the surgery although the doc told us he almost bailed twice.
Well, I thought the hardest part was over but boy was I wrong!
The nurses in the SICU were so insensitive and unreal! So, we had to complain about...

Okay, so today, I was watching the news and I have seen a couple of rabies infections news stories and it made me think.

Okay, is Goldie up to date?...Of course she is, I don't think she is due till August 24th...Well, let me check just to make sure....I think there is a Banfield reminder on the fridge.

SO, I go to the fridge and there is a reminder for two vaccinations. Hold up, what are these?...I can recognize one...but the other I can't...anyways..
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Okay, so I was 1 min late?!!!!!!! I MEAN 1 min late for check-in at U.S Airways. I am running, I go to the self serve kiosk. I hear someone say, ANYONE GOING TO PHOENIX? I said, I am!!!! This lady looked at me in the face and said, OoooOOo well, LOOKS like you just missed your flight! I am gonna need you to go get in that line over there....


I WAS SOOOOO HOT?!!!!! WHy make a last call if you aren't going to take anyone?!!!!! ALSO, she could have talked to me in a different...

Yea, so work has been pretty interesting lately...People getting fired for bullshit and some valid shit, so this is causing a back up among other things. So much gossip happening and assumptions. Not sure if I wanna work for this company anymore....

I also deleted about 7 or 8 people from my friends list here on AL. Even though this is a message board, I don't want to have people occupying space..Hanging like tree ornaments...I am sure more will be deleted, in the next couple of days......

Well, last night I went to sleep around 1a.m. Then I wake up from a HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE...I have not had a nightmare since I was.........I dunno....It's been sooo long I can't remember.



Well, in my dream I am in this huge house, in a bedroom with some people..I am not sure how many there were in there total. I do know that I was talking to 3 people and it was dark. We were trying to get out of the room. I wanted to get out of the room, the house.......I wanted to bust...

To think I was smitten by you and your sarcastic, assshol-ish ways....
To think it was possible to connect with you despite the obstacles....
Constantly second guess myself, my subconscious, my reality......
When I think about why I am taking myself through any of this, I have no answer.....
Are you worth the headache?
Are you worth the head tripping?
Are you even worth my time?
All these questions and not enough answers....
All I have are...

Thinking about things that go on in your life can take almost every second of your day. Thinking about your dreams, goals, aspirations, past journeys, present journeys, future journeys, old flames, possibly new flames, family, friends, careers, death, hate, disparity....thinking about these things can leave one in such a disarray that the mind wants to shut down but it can't, it keeps thinking, wondering, waiting for something or someone, hopefully it's owner to release itself from the lonely corner...