I posted this on my facebook, but I wanted to post it here because a lot of people have found my honesty inspiring and have been able to release their burdens too. Enjoy...


So after 25 years of bottling everything up, I just can’t take it anymore. I was always able to swallow my emotion but now that I am in physical pain all the time, I just can’t. So if I’m honest about my life for the first time ever – maybe I can get through this.

The first 5 years...

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So I'm still suffering from screaming pain all over my body. I prescribed myself a non-narcotic muscle relaxer and a anti-inflammary. I am taking Loraleena's advice and changin my diet. So I look food with anti inflammatory properties. Here is what I will be eating for the next week:
~ Apples
~ Avocados
~ Almonds
~ Carrots
~ Strawberries
~ Spinage
~ Saltines
~ Tunafish
~ Total Cereal
Hahaha this will be fun. The problem is I don't...

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OK so below is an email from my vice principal (my boss in training). He is writing me up for being late to morning duty 3x (morning duty being babysitting 200 middle schoolers playing basketball in the gym before school starts - the reason I went to college...) But writing me up is fair, I'm guilty - I'm late, and I really don't care. The part that is pissing me off is the creepy use of the new security cameras we got this year. Below my vice principals "write up" email. Below that is...

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So sometimes I write a blog but then I don't post it. I guess I just blow off steam and put everything into perspective.

With all the crap wrong with the market at least I have job security. I don't have to worry about lay offs and they can't take away my raises.

Thats all I got - everything else pretty crappy right now. hahaha.

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I cut all my hair off! Of course I donated 10 inches to locks of love (they make wigs for kids with cancer.) But I am not sure if I am "in love" with it. The hairdresser always overstyles so once I play with it, I'm sure I will like it. I also think that it may need some red chunky highlights. This is the shortest I've ever had my hair. I'll have some more pics by the end of the weekend. I feel really weird with it this short!! AND my asian neighbor crush walked into the salon while I...

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Test Results:
Lupus - negative
Rheumatory Arthritis - negative
Lyme Disease - negative
MS- negative


I'm getting tired of testing, poking, electrocutings, stabbings, and blood taking...

My pain is pretty high today. It's hard to breath. Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday.

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Oh AZNLover.com - the place I can come to regergitate my life. Free therapy provided by you all, my intimate strangers. So i've been out of touch for a while. Life has been insane, than again, it always is.

Work is better. New boss. Its not the happy place it was, but it isn't damned fire burning hell like last year. This may have to be my last year as a middle school health teacher. Time to apply to some schools for a Phd program or perhaps a law degree. I have no idea.
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So lately, within the past 6 months, I've been dating here and there. Dated a chinese guy pretty heavily for a month but then realized he was going no where with his life and I was trying to "save" him. Been on other first dates with guys that were nice, but just didn't have that spark. Went on a few dates with a very intellegent korean guy - but couldn't get over the feeling I would snap him in 1/2 in bed. So on and so on...

So I've come to the conclusion that I just don't...

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http://www.dailycomet.com/article/20...NEWS/805120305

Those are my nieces and nephew, also my ex-sister-in-law. Killed in a car accident on Saturday night.

http://www.dailycomet.com/article/20...1/0/obituaries

http://www.dailycomet.com/article/20...3/0/obituaries

http://www.dailycomet.com/article/20...2/0/obituaries


Things are insane around here - my brother...

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April 24, 2008

Attention: JHU Office Medical Director:

As a recently new patient, I am highly disappointed with the conversation I had with Dr. McGee today. Early in the day I spoke with a receptionist about leaving a message for a doctor regarding a prescription I failed to transfer from my college’s health center and have now run out of. The receptionist advised me that doctors do not give out prescriptions over the phone – completely understandable, so I asked...

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