I am totally a person who wears her heart on her sleeve. It often sets me up to be hurt. To steal minh's words I just need to swallow some cement and harden the fuck up.

No wonder women play games. You show yourself, you're kind, you're giving, you're patient. And men freak out. I'm just gonna be bitchy, aloof and unavailable instead. Obviously being myself isn't working.

Get ready to tame the shrew, I'm sick of being soft.

So little man was out of school friday for a cold, but was completely fine yesterday so I sent him to school today. A few hours into the day the teacher called to see if he was still sick, and she explained he had been crying most of the morning. I told her he wasn't sick, and it was probably readjusting back to being in school.

I called back a bit after nap time started to see if he had fallen asleep or if he was still crying, and he had fallen asleep. But the teacher explained...

So some of you may remember 2 years ago when I joined this forum with my first Asian love. I fell the hardest for him, but despite both of us being in love, we knew we wouldn't work. Worst break-up of my life, I'm telling ya, the mutual ones are the hardest, no anger to pull you through.

Anyway, I've never stopped loving him, I haven't been able to let myself go with another man, and I still dream about him. I know we won't work, I know even if I thought we did, he doesn't look...

http://www.aznlover.com/vbulletin/ra...tml#post670291

it's two posts up...oh the funnies that can ensue since she has me on ignore.

I'm biased, but he's the cutest! I submitted this in a contest.
http://www.mylifetime.com/sweepstake...?entry=2128348

I am human

I am who I am, I don't try to be something I'm not.

I'm not always nice, but I try to be empathetic. I think this is more sincere anyway.

I can be blunt and harsh, but I'm much harder on myself.

I am not my body, I am not my mind, I am not my personality, I am a whole person. And I view others as such.

I will not agree with everyone, but it is very rare that I will make disagreements personal, even if we debate...

Just feeling chatty and stircrazy after a day home with a sick little man.

I should be studying, but I just can't!

Talk to me my babies.

Let's face it things are funky for me. I find myself on the funkiest of days completely stalking and spewing on AL.

I think it's keeping my mind off things, keeping me interacting with people even when I've hit up most of the numbers on my cell to chat.

They say the internet worsens depression, but I swear it keeps me from curling up in a ball and crying my eyes out on these rotten days.

Or I'm just an addict

For the past week or so, I've been waking up at around 2 am unable to get back to sleep for a few hours.

It's better than before when I was just staying up period. Lately I've been falling asleep around 8-9 pm when my son goes to bed. But I have this weird period of being awake in the middle of the night.

My mom used to have this problem and they found she had sleep apnea. Maybe I should do a sleep study.

Anyone else have experience with this?

Well, I finally got on my ass and have started a public blog on wordpress. I'll still blog here, but they will likely be more about dating, personal stuff and Asian themed stuff.

Family and little man stuff will go to http://cadesmom.wordpress.com/ So please feel free to favorite it if you want to follow us.

I feel really good about this. It's been good, meeting new people already, and especially my first blog has opened up some heart-full and frank discussions...