Wow..I need to go shoot myself
Posted 09-07-2008 at 03:53 PM by MonkeyD
If you know me in person and you know me more than just once or twice. Or if you spoken to me on the phone for more than just 5 times. You probably know I'm very easy going and very whatever type of guy. Lately I been observing the people I have around me and figuring out who really actually should be in my life and who shouldn't. Who is in it for me and who actually cares
If you ever ask any of my friends who are in my circle they can tell you. I'm one of the most craziest, funniest and evil person you can meet. I throw the wickest shit and i take care of my people. I expect to be treated equally or at least somewhat close. I know a some of my friends are a bit selfish but I was hoping for some respect , some appreciation, some loyality.
I threw a bonfire this weekend. A good amount of people in one way or another disappointed me to the point I had to walk away from my own bonfire and was thinking about leaving. I had someone who I've done a lot for basically make me felt non existence, I have a friend I thought and business partner who first went off on me and I'm guessing probably going to break my trust and loyality once I found out what happen that night. I had friends who basically bitch to me all day and some didn't even say thank you for doing this..ooh the list can go on
So as I ice my fuckup hand..yes from punching several things..thank gwad judy was there to stop me from punching out two people. I'm trying to ask myself why I should even bother. I'm looking for that save and grace right now..cuz honesty I am at the edge and don't see it. I am so disillusion by people these days. If this continues I'm ready to just walk away from it all. So tell me why should I even care anymore
I know this sounds like I'm whining and in some ways I am. I'm just very disappointed. And Want a simple answer..is there a pill to just make it all go away
I know this might shine a negative light on the bonfire. But it actually did went really well. Everyone seems to enjoy themselves and had a good time. This is just something personally I was dealing with that night. Sorry for the grammar or spelling mistakes. I didn't use spell check
If you ever ask any of my friends who are in my circle they can tell you. I'm one of the most craziest, funniest and evil person you can meet. I throw the wickest shit and i take care of my people. I expect to be treated equally or at least somewhat close. I know a some of my friends are a bit selfish but I was hoping for some respect , some appreciation, some loyality.
I threw a bonfire this weekend. A good amount of people in one way or another disappointed me to the point I had to walk away from my own bonfire and was thinking about leaving. I had someone who I've done a lot for basically make me felt non existence, I have a friend I thought and business partner who first went off on me and I'm guessing probably going to break my trust and loyality once I found out what happen that night. I had friends who basically bitch to me all day and some didn't even say thank you for doing this..ooh the list can go on
So as I ice my fuckup hand..yes from punching several things..thank gwad judy was there to stop me from punching out two people. I'm trying to ask myself why I should even bother. I'm looking for that save and grace right now..cuz honesty I am at the edge and don't see it. I am so disillusion by people these days. If this continues I'm ready to just walk away from it all. So tell me why should I even care anymore
I know this sounds like I'm whining and in some ways I am. I'm just very disappointed. And Want a simple answer..is there a pill to just make it all go away
I know this might shine a negative light on the bonfire. But it actually did went really well. Everyone seems to enjoy themselves and had a good time. This is just something personally I was dealing with that night. Sorry for the grammar or spelling mistakes. I didn't use spell check
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cut those friends off and make new ones.
I'm in the process of doing that right now...
my friends were so fake and two faced.. its not even funny. so i graduly stop talking to them.. I only chill with about 2 ppl I actually like..and the ones that are out of state.. I write too.
but yea... you need to cut those people out of your life.
its for the better.Posted 09-07-2008 at 05:06 PM by brwnsuga0407
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Posted 09-07-2008 at 05:15 PM by sunny
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Hope it wasn't the AL bonfire.Posted 09-07-2008 at 06:33 PM by supernaturalnine 
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Wow MonkeyD I am sorry that you haad to go through that.. Shuga is right tho. If your socalled friends are making you feel that way then you should cut em off. I use to have many friends and most of them were two faced backstabbers..
I don't have many friends these days.. Actualy I only have one true friend but it's ok because I am more happy with that one friend than when I had many..
I rather have quallity people in my life and I have learned that just because one has many friends doesn't mean that all of those friends are good because they pretend to be your friend.. people are jerks sometimes and you gotta learn to cutt em loose.
I prefer quality over quantity.... Feel better soon sweety
Posted 09-07-2008 at 06:52 PM by littlelady26
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Just like Little Lady said: "quality over quanity".
I've learned that lesson and I'm practicing myself. Don't worry....it'll be a bright day soon...Posted 09-07-2008 at 07:24 PM by HunnieBee
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I've been in the same place. You can try to be a nice guy and give people the benefit of the doubt. But I realized I have to be honest with myself when someone is just taking advantage of me.
If I get called by someone only to ask for favors, then I don't need that person in my life.
All I can tell you is that this feeling passes. You'll come to appreciate those people that are real friends and know who you can depend on.
Good luck and keep your chin up... and ice on your hand.Posted 09-07-2008 at 08:27 PM by ScubaDvr
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No! Don't shoot yourself sugar. This is a much better idea: :couple :hug: :kiss: :banana2:Posted 09-07-2008 at 09:07 PM by Blondie
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I'm sorry, did I not bring enough wood? Just kidding.
Totally appreciate you throwing the bonfire and I'm sure folks who attended felt the same.Posted 09-07-2008 at 10:31 PM by PorkBun
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Good thing is my friend who is my business partner and I talked. He told me the truth and things are okay now with us.
Thanks everyone for the comments and yes I am cutting one person out.. Life seems so much better and less BSPosted 09-08-2008 at 11:23 PM by MonkeyD
