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heavy chest, empty soul
Every minute feels like a lifetime here in my hell.
"I would fall out of a plane before I would cheat on you. I would break up with you to your face, before I EVER did anything like that. That is the one thing I would never do in a relationship."
I can't get this out of my head. It alternates between this, and flashbacks of the pictures I saw of him with another woman.
"I want to marry you. Have munchkins with you. I have never said this to anyone before in my life."
Too bad I don't believe in open marriage.
It's even hard to breathe. I haven't the energy.
3 hours of sleep, and no food for almost 30.
What's really the worst is that I long for him. I miss him with every fiber of my being.
PS - and this applies to anyone who has done what he did - If you are truly sorry, if you seriously want to change your horrible ways and make good on all the promises you made to your SO, if you honest to god repent, you have to do something to win them back. You HAVE to make an effort to redeem yourself. Sitting around on your ass feeling sorry for yourself because YOU fucked up isn't going to magically bring them back. Anyone seen the movie "The Last Kiss"? Something like that is a good place to start. If you want something, especially something that you already broke and pushed away once, you have to earn it back. It's not gonna just land in your lap.
"I would fall out of a plane before I would cheat on you. I would break up with you to your face, before I EVER did anything like that. That is the one thing I would never do in a relationship."
I can't get this out of my head. It alternates between this, and flashbacks of the pictures I saw of him with another woman.
"I want to marry you. Have munchkins with you. I have never said this to anyone before in my life."
Too bad I don't believe in open marriage.
It's even hard to breathe. I haven't the energy.
3 hours of sleep, and no food for almost 30.
What's really the worst is that I long for him. I miss him with every fiber of my being.
PS - and this applies to anyone who has done what he did - If you are truly sorry, if you seriously want to change your horrible ways and make good on all the promises you made to your SO, if you honest to god repent, you have to do something to win them back. You HAVE to make an effort to redeem yourself. Sitting around on your ass feeling sorry for yourself because YOU fucked up isn't going to magically bring them back. Anyone seen the movie "The Last Kiss"? Something like that is a good place to start. If you want something, especially something that you already broke and pushed away once, you have to earn it back. It's not gonna just land in your lap.
