Realization...
Posted 11-22-2008 at 12:18 AM by wrldtraveler
The realization that my friend will leave in less than a month now is coming so fast now and I don't know what I will do. Someone I hang out with at least once a week if not more. Someone I get along with well and I learn from and he learns a little from me. The more I try to keep this friendship only in my heart, the less this works. I found out about the girlfriend too late. I'm gone now. I just don't know what I can do. Nothing really, because no matter what, he's an amazing friend and I couldn't just stop that. Ok, I am so tired and can't think straight after this night... but maybe will write more later if I could even begin to articulate this :-/
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for a worldly world traveler, you seem very inexperienced in the ways of the heart...Posted 11-22-2008 at 06:31 AM by Shang Chi
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Life is full of change. You must embrace the change and look forward to the future. It's always good to keep your prospects open. Even though you love this friend dearly, it wasn't meant to be at this time and point. Maybe some day in the future it would change. Keep in contact, but low profile. You never know when his situation might change. In the meantime, try to make some new friends, try a new hobby, etc....Posted 11-22-2008 at 10:59 AM by luvasiagal
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you know what I think of this. I can't be the one to convince you to do or not to do something. If you want to live your life saying 'what if', then by all means do it.
One day you're going to realize that the world isn't going to wait on you to make a decision. It's going to keep moving and as it's moving there will be many opportunities that come your way. It's up to you to decide what you want to do with it.
What kind of friend would he be, if he decided not to talk to you after you confessed to him what's been in your heart for so long? Would you want a friend like that? It sounds to me he's a great guy. You need to let it out, not just so he would know but for you to be able to breathe again. You have a 800lb gorilla on your back and it's not going any where until you confess.
If he says he's not interested, what's the worst that can happen? He goes back to Korea and it's done with. You can have a few days to get it out of your system and it's back to the drawing board again.
I've been in your shoe. I could never tell any of my crushes how I felt until it became so enormous that I let it out like some weirdo and it caught them COMPLETELY off guard. It's going to keep building and building until you can't stop it. You need to let it out before it gets bad. You're already losing sleep and crying about this, there's no need to. Would you rather be sad every night thinking of him and what could've been?
I can't tell you what to do or how to do it. I'm just telling you from what I've been through, what I did and how it changed the way I act around people I am attracted to. I found my breaking point, maybe you need to find yours as well.Posted 11-22-2008 at 07:38 PM by Intolight
