Sick, infected, ill, yuck

I am laying in bed while typing. I am talented I guess lol.

So I was thinking to myself it has been a while since I have been on Aznlover and it has been a long time I posted a blog. So I will post a blog today. Just to let you all know I am procrasinating in statistics homework while doing this

I have been so busy with friends that I have not been on the computer like always. It is great but sad at the same time. I assume that since I thought I would never be able to make friends in MI (because I am mentally retarded in a sense that no one will ever like a person like me) then it would be easy to move to New York considering I would not be leaving hardly anyone important behind. Easy right? Well my family is important, but I want to live my life else where and perhaps make friends there if I am lucky. But now that I have made friends here in MI, I will be so sad to leave them behind. It will break my heart! Also it will also break my friend Avvy's heart the most. One day I mention that day of me leaving and her and I started to cry about it. It is going to be hard to leave MI. It is as if I have started a whole new life here in MI. It took me two in a half years!

It all started with me hanging out with Avvy and David, then never go back home to my parents house. I would hang out so much at her house that at this rate, I got a job and now I can pay rent. And believe or not now I have my own place to live! This believe it or not this is my first place! At age 24, I finally moved out. That is a huge movement for someone like me. I never thought I would be able to stand on my own two feet. But I am doing it right now! I have Avvy to thank for this mostly. Avvy and I are alike in many ways. We get along with guys more than girls. But her and I can relate! We both needed that female companionship, I am so glad she wanted to be my friend. I am glad she wants me to be around. But mostly another person I want to thank is David Belinsky. If I did not to talk to him and ask to hang out with him and Avvy, none of this would of ever happened! David and his Triforce Tattoo a week before black friday started EVERYTHING. He might think it is no biggy but to me it means a lot to me because none of this would of taken place.

There are more details and heart aches that comes with this blog, but it would take forever to explain everything! All I have to say is I never thought anyone would want to be my friend. When you are bipolar people see you as a freak sometimes. This makes me a societal reject. It is so touching that these people take time to understand me, they listen to me, they comfort me when I am sad and hurting inside. When they told me that they wanted to go get some medicine when I was sick, I cried. The only friend who has ever done that for me was Alicia, my best friend in Cali. They understood me and my emotions. My friend Chris wanted to befriended me on my myspace and read my blogs. When he read some of them he was concerned and talk to me about them. He and I talk for HOURS. lol He is like a brother I have never had. He shared his stories and now he is close to me like Avvy and David.

Through these terrific friends I have made more terrific friends. SO many that I could not count on my own hands and toes.

Avvy, David, Darren, Jenny, Jessica, Maria, Chris, Cricket, Cameron, Nazzy, Kaiser, Jacob, Josh, Kelsey, Markus, Gomez, Steve, Kat, Katie, Katie,Katie, Mary, Faja, Animal, Courtney, Trevor, Justin,Eldon, Mary Jo, Irish, Cloe, Chris's mom! Trevor's sister Lee Ann Patrick most of all because he has been there for me since I moved here in this crazy forsaken state!

I love everyone one of you! You have no idea how blessed I am to have each and everyone one of you in my life! Thank you for taking me as I am and for wanting to be my friend in the first place.
Thanks to you all. I am no longer alone and no longer feel like a worlds reject.


But when it came to this forum, for all you who have talked to me and commented on my blogs, threads, for all those and you know who you are for talking to me in chat,
I want to let you all know that I love you all too. You all made my days more brighter in many ways. I cherish the friends I have made on the network of aznlover.com.
Through the nonsense dramas to Tak puppet shows ( Tak I love your puppets!) I want to thank you all for caring about me. You all do mean a lot to me and you were my friends when I had no friends at all. When I went to the ER I had friends here to talk about it with. That means so much.

In this blog I have not forgotten about my Sayangku Atoy. He is so happy for me! He is so happy that I have friends to hang out with. My Sayang and I are still close and we still love each other very much. Him and I are going to be on the same phone plan soon. I am boycotting verizon wireless because the corporate has mistreated my mother so much as an employee, they tried to fire her when she was on disability. They knew she was on disability, they just wanted to see what they can get away with. Because of of the Bull shit they put her through and because of how they denied her everything her doctor notes directed. I am going to cancel my verizon wireless plan and tell corporate to SUCK MY DICK! My Sayang and I are going Tmobile. So I will be able to talk to him for free and go on the net with him as well.



Well reality says it is time to do the rest of the math homework

Laters <3 Sharla