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I've dated some guys, including this 6'4 Korean guy. But, he turned out to have a love for Xtasy (the drug) and bondage. I'm sorry, but some of my ancestors came here in chains...there's no way in Hell you're tying ME up!!!
I firmly believe that who we have exposure to plays a huge role in shaping who we will find desirable, especially if we are bombarded with that message consistently. Yes, there are always exceptions. But, I know for me, because mostly White men were shown on tvs as sexy and desirable, I began having a preference for and would only date them for a period of time during college. BUT, before that, around puberty, I saw the martial arts movies on tv and loved the features and fineness of the Asian guys in the films. That did it for me.
My first face-to-face crush was this tooo cute Chinese guy in 8th grade who relocated from CA, because he was getting into trouble. He ended up hooking up with a loser crowd and not doing well. I guess whereever you go, there you are.
The problem was, in many parts of the south, there was the message that we had a place and that was within our race...so I solely dated Black guys up until grad school.
Anyway, the truth is, I've dated all races and find all races attractive...BUT, I realized that my first preference has always been for Asian guys. However, that was hard to manifest because of several factors, including: lack of exposure to them and some are not interested in Black women. I respect Asian guys' interest in White girls, but on EVERY Asian men/non-Asian forum I'm on, the focus seems to edge out Black women and focus on White women and blonde hair and blue eyes and straight noses, as if no other group of women exist. lol!! Suddenly, you feel like an interloper on a site where you wanted to share your interest in and VERY strong attraction to Asian men, also. Don't get me wrong, I honestly respect that it's an individual's preference and do hope people will continue to share their interests/preferences. I'm just being open and stating what my experience has been.
You see, in the forums, I noticed the Asian men talking about stereotypes against them, about Asian women preferring White men, and about White women seeming to prefer White and Black guys more. And I'm like, "Hello!! Over here?!" :~) All the while, I'm thinking, there is a whole race of women, with beauty ranging from Mariah Carey to Naomi Campbell, from Brazil (largest population of Blacks outside of Africa) to Ethiopia, and every shade in between, who are open to Asian men. Women who see them as the men they are and never paid attention to any attempts by media to "sell" one group of men and "sell out" Asian men as less. At my very essence, I'm a woman and regardless of race, I'm attracted to MEN.
It was funny, because the Asian men were almost like "so what?" lol! But, life is about decisions and, after getting really frustrated with this pattern, I seriously considered giving up and focusing on the White men again as some of them seem to love brown skin and women, in general. The interesting thing is, minorities end up discriminating against other minorities, and the White men end up seeming more "open-minded" and looking like saviors when they swoop in appreciating the features our own race has programmed us to despise. lol! Yes, this is very amusing to me.
But, I digress. So, I would then see an Asian guy and I know that's what I find attractive. As a result, I continue to hope. Yet, I look at who I've excluded, namely Black and Latino men. They still don't really do anything for me, even if I find them attractive, but this journey has taught me to be open to where I can find love, even in other races. But, the journey is different for everyone and I'm not telling you to share mine or even asking for solutions. My eyes are open to the dynamics of interracial dating and pairing, and, as with anything in life, I find a way to navigate around it all to get what I want. :~)
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Such wonderful memories..... Okay! I forgive you. Maybe I didn't waste all my kisses after all.... 
